# 🖤 The Last Hands-on the Tunnel #Life #Memory #Grief #Existence #Ali_Originals Dad spent his last few months in hospital rooms .. he could have died alone in a hospital room. He could have died on one of the very rare rights he slept without us next to him. He could have died due to sudden body failure. He could have died in a closed room we aren't allowed to enter. But .. we got to be next to him till his last moments. Only a few hours before his death, he was fighting to communicate with us. We had no idea yet that those will be his last few hours. Maybe he did. At one point on that evening, things escalated. We accepted that he is living his last hours, possibly minutes. In his last two hours he was totally unresponsive. We remained next to him, talking to him, and holding his hands. No one had any idea what he was feeling or experiencing during those moments. We didn't even know if he can hear and understand us. but we strongly believed that he did. In his last minutes, while holding his hand I guided him through "the tunnel" ... I wanted to ease his mind about what he could be seeing and experiencing. I hope I did. This all is a blessing that many don't get. If you get it, don't waste it. . --- My eyes teared up while writing this .. and my music instantly played this: https://youtu.be/6F8QVO9PZWE?si=3jMqfFcUmDET5KN1 It's not just a coincidence ![[Dads arm.png]] > [!rtl]- بالعربي > أبي قضى الأشهر الأخيرة من حياته في غرف المستشفى.. كان من الممكن أن يموت وحيدًا في غرفة. كان من الممكن أن يموت في إحدى الليالي النادرة التي نام فيها دون أن نكون بجانبه. كان من الممكن أن يموت نتيجة فشل مفاجئ في جسده. كان من الممكن أن يموت في غرفة مغلقة لا يُسمح لنا بدخولها. > > لكن.. حظينا بأن نكون بجانبه حتى لحظاته الأخيرة. > > قبل ساعات قليلة من وفاته، كان يكافح للتواصل معنا. لم نكن نعرف بعد أن تلك ستكون ساعاته الأخيرة. ربما هو كان يعرف. > > في إحدى لحظات تلك الليلة، تصاعدت الأمور. قبلنا أنه يمر بساعاته الأخيرة، وربما دقائق. > > خلال ساعاته الأخيرتين كان غير مستجيب تمامًا. بقينا إلى جانبه، نتكلم معه، ونمسك يديه. > > لم يكن لأحد أي فكرة عما كان يشعر به أو يختبره في تلك اللحظات. لم نكن نعرف حتى إن كان يسمعنا ويفهمنا. لكن كنا نؤمن بقوة أنه كان كذلك. > > في لحظاته الأخيرة، وأنا أمسك يده، رافقته خلال "النفق"... أردت أن أهدئ ذهنه عما قد يراه ويشعر به. آمل أني فعلت. > > كل هذا نعمة لا يحظى بها كثيرون. إن حظيت بها، فلا تضيعها. > > . > > --- > > غمرتني الدموع أثناء كتابة هذا.. ولحظةً بعدها بدأ موسيقاي تعزف هذا: https://youtu.be/6F8QVO9PZWE?si=3jMqfFcUmDET5KN1 > > هذا ليس مجرد صدفة > [!seealso] Related Thoughts > > - [[🌿 A Conversation With My Father at the Edge of Life]] > - [[❤️ A Last Conversation with Baba]] > - [[🌸 Peace in Baba’s Rest]] > - [[❤️ Talking with Baba about Death]] > - [[🌌 The Spot Where He's Not]] > - [[Speak with the dying about death]] Published: May 1, 2025